Every Day People

This is me in Hollywood circa 1974.

During this time I was modeling, a groupie, and a documentary photographer.

I hung out with artist, musicians, groupies, photographers actors and actresses. Many of my friends were transsexuals both pre and post-op, others were queens who would  by the end of the decade start being called transgender.

My friends were different races and ethnicities.

But they had one thing in common, they were interesting people.

We were a better world at that point before the rise of the rabid right wing.  Before the ethos of Ayn Rand.  Before the idea that you weren’t some one unless you were crushing someone else.Now we have little Hitlers to the right of us and little Stalins to the left of us, all demanding blind unquestioning allegiance to their particular dogma.

Me… I’d rather have interesting friend, save the planet, end this corporatist version of cancer stage capitalism and replace it with a sustainable form of socialism.

I’m older now and perhaps wiser.  I don’t like bullies and I don’t like being expected to either join lynch mobs or look for windmills to attack.

Quenyar made a comment about sisters who have a lot of plastic surgery to create themselves.  We get very judgmental about that but ignore body builders or people who have sleeves or even full body tattoos.

I get extremely tired people especial TS/TG people looking for something to pick on about another sister.

I’m really harsh about the silicone pumping because it is done by quacks.  Yesterday I read an article about a woman who became a quad-amputee as a result of amateur pumping.

But while I’ve wondered about some of my friend’s ability to know when to stop with the plastic surgery I understand the impulse.

Mostly because I don’t know what lengths I might have gone to if I hadn’t looked the way I did.

So I can’t use the line, “I never had a bunch of plastic surgery, so why should you.” If I say that I’m being kind of hypocritical since I wasn’t in a place where it would make me prettier or more passable.

14 Responses to “Every Day People”

  1. Andrea B. Says:

    Looking good 🙂

    As for Ayn Rand. I have read some of her books. She was just evil.

  2. Sharon Sinéad Gaughan Says:

    That old photo of yours wears very well. Do you remember what you were thinking about at the time?

    • Suzan Says:

      Probably either how long we were going to have to wait before some one took our order or how long we were going to have to wait for our food.

  3. Sharon Sinéad Gaughan Says:

    Everyday things. I have an old picture a neighbor took of me in my back yard circa 1978. My house dress was all muddy from digging at a big plant that collapsed after a heavy rain. All I remember is wanting a warm shower.

    Contrast that with a picture of me at age 17, looking all calm and focused as I worked on a scientific experiment. Despite appearances, I was seething inside with discontent.

    • Suzan Says:

      Also depending on who actually clicked the shutter on my Nikkormat that day I was also probably thinking, “Don’t fucking touch either the shutter speed or aperture just focus and push.”

      It was taken with my camera, probably with the 50mm F1.4, probably f5.6 or f8 at 1/60 to 1/100 of a second.

  4. Andrea B. Says:

    Good cover shot 🙂

  5. Andrea B. Says:

    Suzy, my camera is point and click 🙂

    • Suzan Says:

      They all are now. In 1974 Nikkormats were the choice of tools for would be photo-journalist/documentary photographers. They were relatively cheap and you could hammer nails with them which made them great for shooting from stage aprons.

  6. quenyar Says:

    It is a wonderful picture. I didn’t mean to “pick on about another sister.” I feel it is a shame when people make their lives two dimensional for whatever reason: be it gender, sexuality, religion, beauty, sports, politics, or any other brand of fanaticism. All things in moderation, I feel is a good general guide.

    I understand why people have plastic surgery and like you I’ve never been able to convince myself that my having surgery would improve me sufficiently to be worth it. If you do, then please do and I won’t judge you. What I took exception to was dozens or in some cases even hundreds of surgeries, which is a kind of excess I think is unhealthy, regardles of why – almost.

    I knew a kid who got flattened by a 1955 Chevy while on his bicycle – the car landed on him and compressed him like a pancake, but he lived, though he had hundreds of operations and was in hospitals for decades. I remember him telling me when he was 16 that he wished his parents had just let him die. Having known him and the horrors he endured, I just have very little emtional understanding of anyone who would do this to themselves deliberately.

    In my book, doing body modifications that allows you to function as a well adjusted human being = good. Doing it out of sheer vanity or to make yourself a better, more saleable product = bad. That’s my book. You have a different book. This is a good thing. I don’t think anyone should be objectified.

  7. Sharon Sinéad Gaughan Says:

    quenyar, Aside from some recent eye surgery, I have had a number of plastic and reconstructive surgeries over the years, clustered into 13 surgical “events”, that derived from injury. I can’t imagine doing it for fun or some fetishistic satisfaction.

    SRS is a different matter, as was a necessary instantiation of plastic and reconstructive surgery to overcome a physical impediment. That is why unthinking comparisons of sex change with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) are so incredibly stupid.

    Having said that, the only cosmetic surgery I would consider these days is a fix for my eyelids, drooping with age..

  8. tinagrrl Says:

    I well remember a horrible burn victim who hung out with some really hard core Irish Drunks/Thugs back when I was tending bar in a rather strange “Pub”. I happened to run into her some 10-12 years later – this still in my drinking days. I have no idea how many, or what kind of surgeries she had, but she was absolutely stunning.

    She said she was still hanging out with those guys — because they were the only people who accepted her as she was back when.

    Sometimes surgeons CAN work miracles — I guess the multiple surgery folks are just looking for that miracle for themselves.

    The difficulty is knowing when to stop. It’s also understanding what age does to your skin, how much things can be stretched, and how young you can actually appear.

    I believe folks that look “wonderful”, but have an old, out of shape body are just fooling themselves — and offering a “package” they cannot deliver

  9. James Loewen Says:

    Lovely photo Suzan, very evocative of that era and yet looks like it could have been taken recently.

    • Suzan Says:

      Oh I wish, but it was so long ago. Now I battle weight and write.

      As for the taken recently… Only if someone were running Ektachrome…

      We both know the texture of film vs digital.

      Even alien skin exposure is only faking it.

      As I recall you used to have a Leica M5.

      Now I have a couple of Panasonics that have Leica lenses and are really great. Do stuff I never imagined doing with my Nikons back when.

      Useful stuff like image stabilization and having the ability to go into video mode.

      Yet I would like to get one of their micro 4/3 and put the 20 dollar Holga lens on it, or a pinhole, or a Lensbaby and subvert the digital blandness within the camera and not manipulating stuff with Photoshop.


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