Random Thoughts on a Lazy Day

Last night we went to see Henry Rollins.  For those of you not versed in punk rock history, Henry was the lead singer of one of the finest punk bands ever, Black Flag.

In the years since the break up of Black Flag, Henry Rollins has emerged as one of the leading spoken word artists. If you haven’t heard of him or seen him perform you should perhaps pull him up on You Tube.

Three hours of stream of consciousness rap, a magical mystery tour that invokes the memory of the late Spaulding Gray, only far edgier with less pathos.  Also more political and radical.

I took the photo with a Panasonic Lumix  DMC-ZS 3, a rather amazing pocket camera with a 25-300mm Leica lens.  A cool camera for when I want to take photos for the blog but don’t feel like schlepping a full sized DSLR.

Another  thought.  We get catalogs.  Once on a mailing list they send catalogs.  Today there was one offering a sale on panties at Victoria Secret.  Anyone who tries to push AGP should be forced to deliver proof as to why it is perverse for transsexuals to look upon the sexualized pictures of of women that arouse both lust and envy.

Apparently to the degree that numerous feminists are concerned that combination of lust/envy can lead to identification with those models and the development of a poor body image leading to anorexia and bulemia.

Apparently Bailey and Blanchard are afraid they might get girl cooties if they were to look at fashion magazines and the like.  Or perhaps they are concerned people will think their cherished neo-Freudian bullshit is just that and they don’t want their theories contradicted by reality.

When ever I read any of their crap I am reminded about Freud’s precious penis and the myth of vaginal orgasms.  They are prick focused and as clueless as Freud, Siggie not Anna.

I have to ask myself.  Would I buy a used vaginal orgasm from either Bailey or Blanchard?  The answer is clearly no.

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(New York City) Help Shape HUD’s Study on LGBT Housing Discrimination

Transgender Legal Defense & Education Fund, NY, USA


Please join us and a host of other organizations and elected officials at a first-of-its-kind town hall meeting with officials from the U.S. Department of Housing & Urban Development (HUD) to discuss HUD’s ground-breaking national study <http://portal.hud.gov/portal/page/portal/HUD/press/blog/blog2010-02-22> of housing discrimination against lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender individuals and families in the rental and sales markets.

The purpose of the meeting this Friday, February 26th will be to discuss the nature of HUD’s study and to receive comments from interested groups and individuals. It is essential that members of the transgender community attend to provide input into this important process. We hope to see you on Friday.

Date: Friday, February 26th, 2010

Time: 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm

Location: The Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual & Transgender Community
Center, 208 West 13th Street, Room 301, Manhattan (map
<http://bit.ly/9hIecK> )

Please RSVP to Jasmin Varjavand at Jasmin.Varjavand@hud.gov if you
plan to attend.

This event is hosted by HUD Assistant Secretary Raphael W. Bostic <http://portal.hud.gov/portal/page/portal/HUD/about/principal_staff/assistant_secretary_bostic>
with the offices of New York City Mayor Michael R. Bloomberg and New York City Council Speaker Christine C. Quinn, along with Council Member Erik Martin-Dilan, Council Member Rosie Mendez, Council Member Danny Dromm, and Council Member Jimmy Van Bramer.

Additional town hall meetings will be held in the near future in San Francisco and Chicago.

Weather-related information – Any weather-related contingencies or cancellations will be sent to you by email if you RSVP to the email address listed above. We will also post any updates on our web site and on our Twitter <http://www.twitter.com/tldef> feed. In order to keep email traffic to a minimum, we will not be sending out any additional messages about the event. Thank you for your understanding.

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Paul McHugh still fighting against rights for sex and gender minorities

By Andrea James

Reposted with permission from: Transsexual Road Map Notes, USA


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Paul McHugh still fighting against rights for sex and gender minorities

Paul McHugh <http://www.tsroadmap.com/info/paul-mchugh.html> is a busy guy.

– In 1979 he shut down the gender identity clinic at Johns Hopkins.

– In 2007 he was ordered by Kansas Attorney General Paul Morrison to stop making public statements about physician George Tiller’s work. McHugh disapproved of Tiller’s work providing abortion services. Tiller was later murdered by a fanatic who was influenced by public statements made about Tiller.

– He promotes the concept of “autogynephilia,” a sex-fueled mental illness created by Ray Blanchard.

– He defends Catholic priests against sex abuse charges.

– Now he’s fighting to stop gay marriage.

Katrina Rose points us to Filing # 379 in Perry et al v. Schwarzenegger et al.:


McHugh’s reason for opposing gay marriage cites the work of J. Michael Bailey.

McHugh lays out his views on homosexuality in this pithy quotation:

It really is amazing … I mean, 50 years ago [homosexual behavior] was a crime, and now we’re talking about [same-sex marriage]. Anyone who wants to stick with the tradition is accused of being a biblical literalist or a homophobic racist, because, in part, of the more fundamental change in our society towards permissiveness, that is, easy divorce, cohabitation and concubinage, abortion, pornography … and euthanasia. The issue of the homosexual is not separate … it’s all part and parcel of the pandemonium that the permissive movement has brought. We have just licensed all kinds of behavior.”

Source: Virtue Online

Further reading:
Paul McHugh on transsexualism

This is talk, not advice. See Terms of Use for details.

Posted by Andrea James on 02/24 at 04:26 PM

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The Last Real Woman Syndrome

We get hammered about who we are our entire lives, from the bullies who made our lives a hell in primary through high school period of life to the right wing religious fanatics who want to deny us equality in the eyes of the law.  Some of us were thrown out by our families  as pervert children and left to make our lives on the streets under the care and tutelage of older and wiser wolves.  Others lost the families they tried to build much later in life, the results of divorce and denial of parental rights.  All because of having been born transsexual.

Religions consider us to be an abomination. The police all too often consider us to be criminal even where laws are meant to protect us rather than laws criminalizing us. Real actual violent crimes committed against us go uninvestigated or (in the absence of specific hate crimes law) in the case of the arrest of the offender are under prosecuted with acceptance of the all too common trans-panic defense.

Since 1980 transsexual and transgender people have had psychiatry stigmatize them with every thing from GID to AP/AGP.

Is it any wonder that we have low self esteem and feel shitty about ourselves?

Is it any wonder that people try to repress and deny being transsexual, going so far as to marry and become parents hoping that will cure them, only coming out when life becomes so unbearable that suicide looks like the only alternative?  Often  those who come out young do so not because of some superior level of consciousness or real difference, but rather because their physical appearance is such that it makes living without constant abuse virtually impossible.

Beaten down from birth, told we are inferior because we are too feminine or too masculine, as the case may be, it is hard to not internalize that sense of inferiority.

People talk about internalized transphobia but few really describe it, more often it is used as a label that fails to help us understand the dynamics.

I think part of it comes from a place of: “When I was a child, I was the only one.” Being the only one with little information one of the first conclusions many of us form is that we are somewhere in-between.  Of course since we are the only one, when we grow up and hear that there are others, lots of others,  that felt the same thing, many of us go into a form of denial.

That is the, “Oh no! You too could not have possibly felt the same thing or at least not to the same intensity that I did” reaction. That reaction is pretty freaking immature given how many of us have actually had an operation as treatment for transsexualism.

But we live in this Ayn Rand, John Galt admiring society that totally individualizes transsexualism to the point that many of us have a hard time with the realization that we as a large number of individuals actually constitute a class.  A different class from people with transgenderism because our need for sex change surgery, but a class nonetheless. One defined by the simple (or not so simple) act of having had SRS.

To paraphrase the queen in Paris is Burning, you can’t really point a finger at another WBT and say, “You, you sex change, you!”  Well you can but you look pretty stupid in the process.

So we look for ways of dealing with that internalized self hatred that has been fed by every mean statement, every vicious slur, every beating we have ever experienced for being the queer little freak.  Fear of being the queer little freak.  Because the translation of phobia from its Greek root isn’t hatred but rather fear.

One way is to disassociate ourselves from others who have gone through the same process as we have, to denigrate the very idea of close friendships with other WBTs as “remaining in ghetto”. Then there is a denigration of those who work for political goals such as equal rights for both transgender and transsexual people, or for something as positive as removing the mental illness stigma of GID from the DSM.  Since these WBTs are willing to work with transgendered people on mutually beneficial goals they can’t possibly be real transsexuals and must be “transgender identified”.

Too often “The Last Real Woman Syndrome” seems to be class related as well as heterosexist. The only real women are transsexuals who are heterosexual after their sex reassignment operations.  But even that is tricky because lumpen prole sisters who are sex workers and get their operations with the money earned by tricking are regularly denied legitimacy.  Indeed a big part of the motivation to use Harry Benjamin Syndrome instead of transsexualism is based on disassociating those in the upper class from the lumpen “trannie hookers” who use “transsexual” as a descriptor in their sex ads.

But even eliminating the lower classes, the sex workers, still leaves all those other trannies that are of the same basic socio-economic class. How can one who has gone from being the only one in the world to being a member of a class made up of millions of people world wide maintain that cherished Ayn Randian sense of rugged individualism?

One way is through denial. All those claims of obscure and often contradictory forms of intersex are a way of disassociating oneself from the class of people who all had one variation or another on the same sex change operation you had. “I’m not like you. I’m not some trannie freak, I’m intersex.” As though someone who is intersex and decides to change the sex they were assigned at birth is not transsexual.

I realize that some of the doctors set up this artificial distinction. Yet, too many who have embraced it are garden variety WBTs who want to be special and not trannie freaks like the rest of those people in the class comprised of women who were born with transsexualism.

“Classic Transsexualism” is an even more elite club.  One has to consider themselves stealth even when they are all over blogs and mailing lists hiding behind aliases.  Too often the people embracing this label seem to think that one must be heterosexual after SRS and gays and lesbians are sort of icky as well as undeserving of the same rights as heterosexuals.

There is that embrace of exceptionalism, a sense of privilege that says, “Because I am accepted in an environment rift with hatred of transsexual people as well as transgender, lesbian and gay folks then I am not like those icky people.  If I have to join the gang of bigots in denying equality to LGBT/T folks in order to maintain my exceptionalism and privilege then becoming one with the bigots is a small price to pay.”

The problem with exceptionalism based on stealth is that no matter how much one believes oneself to be different from all those icky people one is still vulnerable to the transbashing that is all too commonly accepted as legitimate.  After all transsexual and transgender people are mentally ill.

Another major problem for those loudly proclaiming their “Classic Transsexualism” and stealth existence is that they do it loudly and proudly on line. One might be able to maintain stealth if one were totally off the grid as being transsexual or transgender.  Posting and proclaiming makes your location available to anyone with the knowledge of how ISP addresses work.

At best anyone who goes on line and discusses their having been transsexual or for that matter “HBS” is basically out.  Perhaps one depends on the disinterest of the straight people as a method of information control, a risky concept at best in an age of not only high end information collection but a proliferation of non-governmental data collection and investigative services, not to mention Google.

In the end all the name calling and claiming of special status turns into reading each other in a scene straight from Paris is Burning.

It is pretty much a waste of time and energy that does little to improve the status of anyone including the person claiming the special position.  The common denominator is that if you have an operation to change your sex that you sought out then you are transsexual.  The richest and whitest heterosexual after surgery shares that common denominator of having been transsexual with the sex working lesbian woman of color who had the same operation.

One is no less “real” than the other.  Realness is a matter of personal authenticity not some imagined and loudly proclaimed status.