Parents sue Alameda schools over gay-issues curriculum

Because religion teaches these Christo-Fascist moral monsters that its main tenet is killing LGBT/T folks by stoning.  One of the main Christo-Fascist arguments against anti-bullying and hate crimes laws is that they violate their religious freedom.

Freedom is not the freedom to oppress others.  Although that is the Ayn Rand/John Galt model.

Yesterday Alternet ran an article describing Ayn Rand’s facination with a sociopathic murderer and how she saw him as the perfect model.

So what, and who, was Ayn Rand for and against? The best way to get to the bottom of it is to take a look at how she developed the superhero of her novel, Atlas Shrugged, John Galt. Back in the late 1920s, as Ayn Rand was working out her philosophy, she became enthralled by a real-life American serial killer, William Edward Hickman, whose gruesome, sadistic dismemberment of 12-year-old girl named Marion Parker in 1927 shocked the nation. Rand filled her early notebooks with worshipful praise of Hickman. According to biographer Jennifer Burns, author of Goddess of the Market, Rand was so smitten by Hickman that she modeled her first literary creation — Danny Renahan, the protagonist of her unfinished first novel, The Little Street — on him.

What did Rand admire so much about Hickman? His sociopathic qualities: “Other people do not exist for him, and he does not see why they should,” she wrote, gushing that Hickman had “no regard whatsoever for all that society holds sacred, and with a consciousness all his own. He has the true, innate psychology of a Superman. He can never realize and feel ‘other people.'”

This echoes almost word for word Rand’s later description of her character Howard Roark, the hero of her novel The Fountainhead: “He was born without the ability to consider others.”

One may argue that this is a perversion of Christianity and yet historically Christianity along with Islam has spread at the point of a sword leaving millions upon millions of bodies in its wake.
How perfectly sociopathic to totally disregard the pain and suffering this ideology of hate causes LGBT/T people.

Dec. 8 vote to readopt Lesson 9 at elementary level violated Brown Act, plaintiffs argue.

By Michele Ellson

Posted: 02/25/2010 03:32:36 PM PST

Updated: 02/25/2010 04:43:41 PM PST
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Kerry Cook and Serena Dietrich filed a suit Feb. 18 in Alameda County Superior Court that seeks to nullify the school board’s Dec. 8 vote to readopt Lesson 9 for Alameda’s elementary schools until a replacement curriculum is approved and to adopt a Links to Literature guide.

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France May Make Mental Violence a Crime

I seeing some really admirable steps taken in France to end mental abuse.  Of course removing GID from their version of the DSM really caused me to sit up and take notice.

In the late 1990s the APA issued a statement that the actions and suppositions of certain rogue psychiatrists were taking in promoting reparative therapy were creating a source of problems for gay and lesbian people.  That telling gay and lesbian folks they had a mental illness caused psychiatric problems.

When I saw this my inner anarchist went, “Wow! I’ve got to do something with this!”  So I did.  I rewrote the release to make it about transsexualism and put it out on the web.  Just to a few mailing lists.  I wanted to see how fast it would get around.  I later titled the electronic performance piece “If”.

I learned some thing.  Lots of folks are in a co-dependent relationship with an abuser.  That’s the only way I can describe the emotional response of those who cling to GID as a necessary thing in their lives.

It was never part of mine because I came out years before it was invented.  Sometime people insist I too must have had it but it is sort of like religion.  If you grow up a non-believer chaces are you won’t become one.  To me GID is like an abusive thug that messes with my friends.  I tell them to leave their abuser but they insist they need him (GID).

This is one of those world changing paradigm shifts in deal with abuse.

From the New York Times



PARIS — France’s National Assembly approved Thursday night a proposal to add “psychological violence” to a law intended to help victims of physical violence and abuse, despite doubts that the law is specific enough to have much impact.

The proposed law says that to “act or repeatedly say things that could damage the victim’s life conditions, affect his/her rights and his/her dignity or damage his/her physical or mental health” is punishable by a jail term of up to three years and a fine of up to 75,000 euros, or about $103,000. Carefully covering both genders, the law applies to behavior toward a wife, husband, partner or concubine.

Danielle Bousquet, a Socialist, and Guy Geoffroy, a member of the ruling center-right Union for a Popular Movement, wrote the draft law, supported by 30 other legislators. It received backing last November from the government and Prime Minister François Fillon, who called it “very significant progress.”

The new law, Mr. Fillon said, “will allow people to take into account the most insidious situations, which don’t leave a mark to the naked eye but can mutilate the victim’s inner self.” He called the issue “a great national cause,” and the government has started a series of commercials on television to sensitize viewers to conjugal violence, especially against women.

Ms. Bousquet, 64, said that psychological violence could be gradual. “In the beginning, there are only slight offenses, a husband who is a little too insistent and domineering with his wife, but then the husband’s ascendancy becomes more prominent and each time the victim strikes back, the tone changes and physical violence can set in,” she said in an interview together with Mr. Geoffroy.

“Fear isn’t something you can easily simulate,” she said. “It’s not hard to see whether a woman is terrified or not.”

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Friday Night Fun and Culture

Gordon Brown Calls On America To Repeal DADT, Calls UK LGBT Soldiers ‘The Pride Of Our Country’

This came from Issues and Alibis mailing list

I believe its origin to be: (HT: Towleroad)

“As conservatives in the United States try to argue that repealing Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell (DADT) would lead to all sorts of horrors like an increase in “body art,” natural disasters, and a reinstatement of the draft, British citizens are serving comfortably alongside openly gay men and women. Yesterday at a reception at Number 10 Downing Street to celebrate February’s LGBT History Month, UK Prime Minister Gordon Brown underscored the country’s more progressive position:

Brown singled out the lesbians, gays and bisexuals from the Army, Navy and Air Force who attended the event in uniform.

He told them: “You are the pride of our country and we thank you very much. We know this debate continues in America today. I would say to people who still favour ‘don’t ask, don’t tell’, look at our experience in Britain.”

Brown also hosted a reception for LGBT History Month last year, when he slammed California’s Prop. 8 as “unacceptable.”

A recent report by the Palm Center backed up Brown’s statements on gay men and women serving openly in the military. The study found that foreign militaries have been able to quickly and successfully integrate:

Other key conclusions of the new study are that preliminary findings that open gays do not disrupt military effectiveness hold over time, including in Britain, whose policy of non-discrimination marked its ten-year anniversary last month; that successful transitions did not involve creating separate facilities or distinct rules for gays or straights; and that the U.S. has a long tradition of turning to foreign armed forces as relevant sources of information about effective military policy.

Yesterday on the House floor, Rep. Jim Moran (D-VA) read a letter from an active duty soldier in Afghanistan who had “learned that a fellow soldier was also gay, only after he was killed by an IED in Iraq.” The deceased soldier’s partner also “wrote the unit to say how much the victim had loved the military; how they were the only family he had ever known.”

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Britain – Sex-change surgery could be the victim of multi-million pound NHS cuts…

Willow has raised the specter of National Health Insurance  programs ceasing to fund SRS should those of us working to depathologize it succeed in getting GID removed from the DSM.

I honestly do not see that as the problem.  The same forces trying to defund SRS are the same forces trying to defund abortion.  They label SRS as caving into the delusions of mentally ill people.

I am far more concerned with the transfer of wealth upwards and the institution of “austerity measures” on the poor as outlined in Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine.

We are seeing an elimination of the middle classes and polarization into two classes rich and poor where the rich have everything and the poor have nothing.  In this case it is all too easy for those who already have one foot in lumpen prole status to slip fully into that class below the statuses defined as rich/middle/working class.

The privatization of everything would mean that there would be no public health or publicly funded education.

We have long been in a class war.  The problem is that most working class people are to drugged on sports, religion, trinkets, sex and violence to recognize how exploited they are.

[2010-02-26 WiganToday]

Friday, 26th February 2010

NHS savings may affect couples

Couples waiting for IVF fertility treatment and patients hoping for sex-change surgery could be the victims of multi-million pound NHS cuts.

But Wigan health chiefs have sought to reassure patients that no job cut targets have been set.

It was revealed this week that trusts across Greater Manchester have been ordered to slash spending plans for the NHS by a massive £950m.

The need for savings is expected to affect “every aspect of health care”, bringing job cuts and changes to services.

It is understood that savings could be made through cuts in lifestyle services such as IVF, weight loss surgery and gender reassignment.

The “efficiency savings”, outlined in Greater Manchester’s Primary Care Trust board papers begin in April and must be made by 2014.

Bosses have been told to begin with a 30 per cent cut in management – prompting some PCTs to merge human resources, finance and other “backroom” services with neighbouring health trusts.

Ironically, Ashton, Leigh and Wigan PCT’s own chief executive, Peter Rowe, has been enlisted by the Government to identify areas where savings can be made across the country.

Regional health bosses have told Greater Manchester’s 10 primary care trusts – the organisations which fund all health care in their area – that they must save almost £1bn over the next four years.

But the Wigan PCT issued a statement today which was resolutely upbeat, and suggested that much of the savings could be made relatively painlessly by good housekeeping.

A spokesman said: “We have no definite picture of what will happen when the current three-year comprehensive spending review ends in March 2011. We are confident there will be no reduction in the NHS budget.”

Full statement in today’s (Friday) Wigan Evening Post …


I cringe when ever I hear someone use the term “lifestyle” in connection with LGBT/T people.

It has such ultra right wing Christo-fascist connotations.  Like something an American Goebbels cooked up.

“Lifestyle” in one form of usage has the semiotic of a chosen pattern of consumption, or that is how it is marketed in everything from Vogue and Architectural Digest to Outdoor Life or Outside.

When I share a You Tube video on my weekly feature “Friday Night Fun and Culture”  am sharing a glimpse of my “lifestyle” and if you have been following them over the last few months they tell you something about me, or at the very least about the musical artists I like.

Omnivore, lacto-ova vegetarianism, vegan are lifestyle choices.  They reflect how one relates to food and may reflect a whole greater dimension of ethos including how one feels about animals.

While living frugally is not a lifestyle choice for those who live at the bottom of the socio-economic scale, there are those with disposable income who choose to opt out of the vast corporate driven consumption machine.  For those people simplifying life and living frugally is not a matter of necessity but of choice.

Ironically there is a gay/lesbian lifestyle, a rather well developed one at that,  which overlaps with the world of art and fashion.  One can go to G/L restaurants, watch G/L movies, go to theater featuring L/G performers, buy the out put of L/G artists goe on G/L cruses and live in certain parts of cities where gay men or lesbians cluster.

This is less a case for people with transgenderism and even far less a case for post-SRS women and men.  What do we have that constitutes a culture beyond books, blogs and conferences?

However, the Christo-Fascist right wing does not use lifestyle in the context of an actual life style but rather as a semiotic indicating a pervert who has chosen to be a pervert and who should be stoned to death rather than allowed to live as an equal to cis-gender/sex white heterosexual people.

It bothers me even more when the self proclaimed “classic transsexuals” pull the Christo-Fascist version of the semiotic out of their equally transsexual asses and use it to attack those  post-op transsexual women  who are bisexual or lesbian in their sexual orientation. The sound bite has long been that it was the doctors who required us to become heterosexual through surgery. But the real back story is that we took more shit from our heterosexual sisters in the 1970 than we did from the medical profession regarding our post-SRS sexual orientation.

Sexual orientation like transsexualism and transgenderism are not lifestyle choices.  A lifestyle choice when all are equal affordable is choosing to go on the Nation Magazine Cruise for Progressives vs Carnival Cruise for Families vs Olivia Cruise for lesbians.

There is one thing about the usage of that semiotic and how it is attached to people,  how you use it tells me if I want to be associated with you or not.

Random Thoughts on a Lazy Day

Last night we went to see Henry Rollins.  For those of you not versed in punk rock history, Henry was the lead singer of one of the finest punk bands ever, Black Flag.

In the years since the break up of Black Flag, Henry Rollins has emerged as one of the leading spoken word artists. If you haven’t heard of him or seen him perform you should perhaps pull him up on You Tube.

Three hours of stream of consciousness rap, a magical mystery tour that invokes the memory of the late Spaulding Gray, only far edgier with less pathos.  Also more political and radical.

I took the photo with a Panasonic Lumix  DMC-ZS 3, a rather amazing pocket camera with a 25-300mm Leica lens.  A cool camera for when I want to take photos for the blog but don’t feel like schlepping a full sized DSLR.

Another  thought.  We get catalogs.  Once on a mailing list they send catalogs.  Today there was one offering a sale on panties at Victoria Secret.  Anyone who tries to push AGP should be forced to deliver proof as to why it is perverse for transsexuals to look upon the sexualized pictures of of women that arouse both lust and envy.

Apparently to the degree that numerous feminists are concerned that combination of lust/envy can lead to identification with those models and the development of a poor body image leading to anorexia and bulemia.

Apparently Bailey and Blanchard are afraid they might get girl cooties if they were to look at fashion magazines and the like.  Or perhaps they are concerned people will think their cherished neo-Freudian bullshit is just that and they don’t want their theories contradicted by reality.

When ever I read any of their crap I am reminded about Freud’s precious penis and the myth of vaginal orgasms.  They are prick focused and as clueless as Freud, Siggie not Anna.

I have to ask myself.  Would I buy a used vaginal orgasm from either Bailey or Blanchard?  The answer is clearly no.

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(New York City) Help Shape HUD’s Study on LGBT Housing Discrimination

Transgender Legal Defense & Education Fund, NY, USA


Please join us and a host of other organizations and elected officials at a first-of-its-kind town hall meeting with officials from the U.S. Department of Housing & Urban Development (HUD) to discuss HUD’s ground-breaking national study <> of housing discrimination against lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender individuals and families in the rental and sales markets.

The purpose of the meeting this Friday, February 26th will be to discuss the nature of HUD’s study and to receive comments from interested groups and individuals. It is essential that members of the transgender community attend to provide input into this important process. We hope to see you on Friday.

Date: Friday, February 26th, 2010

Time: 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm

Location: The Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual & Transgender Community
Center, 208 West 13th Street, Room 301, Manhattan (map
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Please RSVP to Jasmin Varjavand at if you
plan to attend.

This event is hosted by HUD Assistant Secretary Raphael W. Bostic <>
with the offices of New York City Mayor Michael R. Bloomberg and New York City Council Speaker Christine C. Quinn, along with Council Member Erik Martin-Dilan, Council Member Rosie Mendez, Council Member Danny Dromm, and Council Member Jimmy Van Bramer.

Additional town hall meetings will be held in the near future in San Francisco and Chicago.

Weather-related information – Any weather-related contingencies or cancellations will be sent to you by email if you RSVP to the email address listed above. We will also post any updates on our web site and on our Twitter <> feed. In order to keep email traffic to a minimum, we will not be sending out any additional messages about the event. Thank you for your understanding.

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Paul McHugh still fighting against rights for sex and gender minorities

By Andrea James

Reposted with permission from: Transsexual Road Map Notes, USA

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Paul McHugh still fighting against rights for sex and gender minorities

Paul McHugh <> is a busy guy.

– In 1979 he shut down the gender identity clinic at Johns Hopkins.

– In 2007 he was ordered by Kansas Attorney General Paul Morrison to stop making public statements about physician George Tiller’s work. McHugh disapproved of Tiller’s work providing abortion services. Tiller was later murdered by a fanatic who was influenced by public statements made about Tiller.

– He promotes the concept of “autogynephilia,” a sex-fueled mental illness created by Ray Blanchard.

– He defends Catholic priests against sex abuse charges.

– Now he’s fighting to stop gay marriage.

Katrina Rose points us to Filing # 379 in Perry et al v. Schwarzenegger et al.:

McHugh’s reason for opposing gay marriage cites the work of J. Michael Bailey.

McHugh lays out his views on homosexuality in this pithy quotation:

It really is amazing … I mean, 50 years ago [homosexual behavior] was a crime, and now we’re talking about [same-sex marriage]. Anyone who wants to stick with the tradition is accused of being a biblical literalist or a homophobic racist, because, in part, of the more fundamental change in our society towards permissiveness, that is, easy divorce, cohabitation and concubinage, abortion, pornography … and euthanasia. The issue of the homosexual is not separate … it’s all part and parcel of the pandemonium that the permissive movement has brought. We have just licensed all kinds of behavior.”

Source: Virtue Online

Further reading:
Paul McHugh on transsexualism

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The Last Real Woman Syndrome

We get hammered about who we are our entire lives, from the bullies who made our lives a hell in primary through high school period of life to the right wing religious fanatics who want to deny us equality in the eyes of the law.  Some of us were thrown out by our families  as pervert children and left to make our lives on the streets under the care and tutelage of older and wiser wolves.  Others lost the families they tried to build much later in life, the results of divorce and denial of parental rights.  All because of having been born transsexual.

Religions consider us to be an abomination. The police all too often consider us to be criminal even where laws are meant to protect us rather than laws criminalizing us. Real actual violent crimes committed against us go uninvestigated or (in the absence of specific hate crimes law) in the case of the arrest of the offender are under prosecuted with acceptance of the all too common trans-panic defense.

Since 1980 transsexual and transgender people have had psychiatry stigmatize them with every thing from GID to AP/AGP.

Is it any wonder that we have low self esteem and feel shitty about ourselves?

Is it any wonder that people try to repress and deny being transsexual, going so far as to marry and become parents hoping that will cure them, only coming out when life becomes so unbearable that suicide looks like the only alternative?  Often  those who come out young do so not because of some superior level of consciousness or real difference, but rather because their physical appearance is such that it makes living without constant abuse virtually impossible.

Beaten down from birth, told we are inferior because we are too feminine or too masculine, as the case may be, it is hard to not internalize that sense of inferiority.

People talk about internalized transphobia but few really describe it, more often it is used as a label that fails to help us understand the dynamics.

I think part of it comes from a place of: “When I was a child, I was the only one.” Being the only one with little information one of the first conclusions many of us form is that we are somewhere in-between.  Of course since we are the only one, when we grow up and hear that there are others, lots of others,  that felt the same thing, many of us go into a form of denial.

That is the, “Oh no! You too could not have possibly felt the same thing or at least not to the same intensity that I did” reaction. That reaction is pretty freaking immature given how many of us have actually had an operation as treatment for transsexualism.

But we live in this Ayn Rand, John Galt admiring society that totally individualizes transsexualism to the point that many of us have a hard time with the realization that we as a large number of individuals actually constitute a class.  A different class from people with transgenderism because our need for sex change surgery, but a class nonetheless. One defined by the simple (or not so simple) act of having had SRS.

To paraphrase the queen in Paris is Burning, you can’t really point a finger at another WBT and say, “You, you sex change, you!”  Well you can but you look pretty stupid in the process.

So we look for ways of dealing with that internalized self hatred that has been fed by every mean statement, every vicious slur, every beating we have ever experienced for being the queer little freak.  Fear of being the queer little freak.  Because the translation of phobia from its Greek root isn’t hatred but rather fear.

One way is to disassociate ourselves from others who have gone through the same process as we have, to denigrate the very idea of close friendships with other WBTs as “remaining in ghetto”. Then there is a denigration of those who work for political goals such as equal rights for both transgender and transsexual people, or for something as positive as removing the mental illness stigma of GID from the DSM.  Since these WBTs are willing to work with transgendered people on mutually beneficial goals they can’t possibly be real transsexuals and must be “transgender identified”.

Too often “The Last Real Woman Syndrome” seems to be class related as well as heterosexist. The only real women are transsexuals who are heterosexual after their sex reassignment operations.  But even that is tricky because lumpen prole sisters who are sex workers and get their operations with the money earned by tricking are regularly denied legitimacy.  Indeed a big part of the motivation to use Harry Benjamin Syndrome instead of transsexualism is based on disassociating those in the upper class from the lumpen “trannie hookers” who use “transsexual” as a descriptor in their sex ads.

But even eliminating the lower classes, the sex workers, still leaves all those other trannies that are of the same basic socio-economic class. How can one who has gone from being the only one in the world to being a member of a class made up of millions of people world wide maintain that cherished Ayn Randian sense of rugged individualism?

One way is through denial. All those claims of obscure and often contradictory forms of intersex are a way of disassociating oneself from the class of people who all had one variation or another on the same sex change operation you had. “I’m not like you. I’m not some trannie freak, I’m intersex.” As though someone who is intersex and decides to change the sex they were assigned at birth is not transsexual.

I realize that some of the doctors set up this artificial distinction. Yet, too many who have embraced it are garden variety WBTs who want to be special and not trannie freaks like the rest of those people in the class comprised of women who were born with transsexualism.

“Classic Transsexualism” is an even more elite club.  One has to consider themselves stealth even when they are all over blogs and mailing lists hiding behind aliases.  Too often the people embracing this label seem to think that one must be heterosexual after SRS and gays and lesbians are sort of icky as well as undeserving of the same rights as heterosexuals.

There is that embrace of exceptionalism, a sense of privilege that says, “Because I am accepted in an environment rift with hatred of transsexual people as well as transgender, lesbian and gay folks then I am not like those icky people.  If I have to join the gang of bigots in denying equality to LGBT/T folks in order to maintain my exceptionalism and privilege then becoming one with the bigots is a small price to pay.”

The problem with exceptionalism based on stealth is that no matter how much one believes oneself to be different from all those icky people one is still vulnerable to the transbashing that is all too commonly accepted as legitimate.  After all transsexual and transgender people are mentally ill.

Another major problem for those loudly proclaiming their “Classic Transsexualism” and stealth existence is that they do it loudly and proudly on line. One might be able to maintain stealth if one were totally off the grid as being transsexual or transgender.  Posting and proclaiming makes your location available to anyone with the knowledge of how ISP addresses work.

At best anyone who goes on line and discusses their having been transsexual or for that matter “HBS” is basically out.  Perhaps one depends on the disinterest of the straight people as a method of information control, a risky concept at best in an age of not only high end information collection but a proliferation of non-governmental data collection and investigative services, not to mention Google.

In the end all the name calling and claiming of special status turns into reading each other in a scene straight from Paris is Burning.

It is pretty much a waste of time and energy that does little to improve the status of anyone including the person claiming the special position.  The common denominator is that if you have an operation to change your sex that you sought out then you are transsexual.  The richest and whitest heterosexual after surgery shares that common denominator of having been transsexual with the sex working lesbian woman of color who had the same operation.

One is no less “real” than the other.  Realness is a matter of personal authenticity not some imagined and loudly proclaimed status.

I’m Getting tired of IS Hijacking Transsexualism

Face it.

The whole thing with people claiming obscure intersex conditions but insisting on hanging out on transsexual lists.  Why are you here?  Really?  Why aren’t you confining yourselves to Intersex lists?

When it comes to getting transsexualism removed from the DSM we do not need a bunch of IS people who all too often come off as disordered narcissists hijacking the debate by standing around proclaiming how special and different they are from ordinary transsexuals.  Folks who come off as neurotic if not flat out psychotic.

I’m starting to think that Intersex is another variation on “classic transsexual”.  An argument for special exceptionalism, a way of assuaging internalized transphobia.

I am looking at the world and seeing that when it comes to getting our legal rights protected the physical cause argument is a total waste of time.  A form of wanking that may feel good but does nothing to end discrimination in employment, marriage, housing etc.  The world wide patterns of  discrimination against people of color where the darker one’s skin the more vicious the discrimination shoots that one full of holes.

I also have serious doubts regarding the supposed huge numbers of infant sex reassignment surgery.  I am starting to have the feeling this may have been something done as an experiment back in the 1940-50s rather than any sort of common practice.  That the idea of this being wide spread is contradicted by the specialized nature of such surgery.  It would be expensive and would require a major medical center.  Perhaps nations with a National Health System, but there would be a major paper trail.  Here in the US where private plans are the only plans other than out of pocket, Health Insurance Programs regularly deny even life saving procedures and avoid the controversial.

But here transkids are in major conflict with the so called Intersex activists.  While intersex activists seem to be anti-childhood sex reassignment people with transsexualism and transgenderism are pushing for the rights of children to transition at a younger and younger age with their rights to a safe education in schools with non-discriminatory policies.

As some one who had my ability to seek medical assistance in changing sex put off until 21 as that was the legal age of majority back in the 1960s I know how having to delay transition damaged my access to an education.

It really doesn’t matter much if some 25% of us show various non-specified (by Benjamin) physical indications.  we aren’t special.  We aren’t unicorns forced to live in a world of ordinary horses.  We are just another transsexual and considering how we are more like one in a thousand rather than the much earlier statistics of one in one hundred thousand we are pretty common, something that surely comes as a blow to the egos of narcissists.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder is somewhat common among people with transsexualism.  It grows out of being the only one as a child and can be seen in those who run around in our circles with all sorts of reasons as to why they are better than the rest of the trannies whom they often describe in a manner one can only describe as condescending.

So I cheerfully wave bye-bye to all the intersex people with rare and often contradictory bizarre conditions.  This blog isn’t about you this blog is about people with transsexualism and their rights.

Standard Narratives

A few years ago I read a book by Jay Prosser titled Second Skins .

While frauds like Bailey and Blanchard disguise their bigotry in pseudo scientific jargon Prosser points out how we have archetypal narratives. This is a variation on what a lesbian writing instructor taught me way back in the 1970s when she said, “All coming out stories are the same story, only the details are different.” Prosser’s thesis is that we need to trust our narratives.

Bailey and Blanchard’s position is that all transsexuals lie. On the other hand I doubt if an honest word has ever passed from the lips or pen of either Bailey or Blanchard.

While they accuse us of making stuff up because all our stories sound alike,  they ignore the idea that they all sound alike because they are of an archetype that has a good deal of similarity to the gay or lesbian coming out story.

Common elements include awareness of both being different and feeling trapped in the wrong body dating from our earliest memories.

We share early memories of struggling to resolve this sense of difference by repression or by early exploration.

A coming of awareness that no matter what one does or accomplishes the feeling of being trapped in a body of the wrong sex will not go a way and that life isn’t worth living if one has to live that life in a way that is so empty and meaningless.

While the perverted Bailey and Blanchard look for perversion in others it is fairly easy to find non perversified reasons why one group comes out young and one waits until middle age.

If you like men you do not have a heterosexist society laying the whole number regarding your proper place in society upon you.  You are already queer, in the words of Kris Kristofferson, “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to loose.”

Granted it may not come down to just that, gay or hetero.  Fear of loosing your family like so many transkids do is enough to scare many from coming out young. Then there is the justifiable fear of winding up a trannie sex worker because coming out has a high potential for trashing out the career your education has prepared you for. All these things are non-pathological, reasonable impediments to coming out when one is just entering adulthood.

There is something else that gets overlooked in the Bailey, Blanchard rush to pathologize.

Yes there are two statistical clusters regarding age of coming out.  One group comes out upon entry into an adulthood and the other comes out in middle age.  Perhaps if transsexuals were the only the only group re-evaluating their lives and making dramatic changes in their lives at that mid-life point then there might be grounds for looking for a zebra in the herd of horses.  But mid-life is a common pivotal point where many people make life changing alterations in their paths.

Interestingly enough when one actually listens to the early life narratives one find the same sort of elements one finds in the narratives of those who come out young.  Every coming out story is the same story only the details are different.  Which may sound very Joseph Campbell,”The Hero with a Thousand Faces” , but the archetypal elements are there nonetheless.

Rather than mocking the moment of childhood satori that is present in the biographies of most transsexuals we should ask ourselves went we first had that moment of awakening to self knowledge.

Rather than suspect the narratives with common easily recognized elements and considering those narratives false, perhaps the narratives that should bear the most questioning are those that lack those elements.  The narratives with a sudden awareness that happens only in middle age when one who has “never felt this before” suddenly awakens to this whether due to trauma or some other on the road to Damascus moment.

Particularly since these people so often embrace some of the most transphobic theories one can possibly find.  Theories posited by pseudo-scientific right wing frauds with connections to NARTH and Opus Dei.  Theories put forth by Bailey, Blanchard, Lawrence,  Zucker, Recker, McHugh, Dreger, Cameron and Socarides.

Of course internalized transphobia coupled with a narcissistic personality could keep such people in deep denial of having anything in common with other women born transsexual.  But one finds common elements among this group.  Among others embracing BBZL etc have been Tirea, Laurent, Lisanne Anderson, Sue Ann Robbins and Willow, who is being allowed to speak but is moderated.

For these people everything is a pathology.

If post-ops commit suicide or engage in substance abuse it is due to a pathology on their part not to how hellishly hard society, especially the right wing Christo-Fascist bigots make it for people with transsexualism to survive with dignity.  Must be pathology and not a life time of abuse.

That is internalized transphobia in action.

But as for me I trust ordinary WBTs with standard narratives not those with strange bizarre ones.

South Dakota Equality Summit 2010

By: Tamara Jeanne Urban
New Media News Correspondent
Trans-Ponder Media, Int.

The South Dakota Equality Summit 2010 was held on Wednesday Feb 17th at the state capitol Pierre. This was the 2nd annual summit on LGBT equality to be held here in SD. The summit had 35 to 40 LGBT people and allies in attendance and was about double of number that was at the 2009 summit. It started at 12 noon and ran until 7:45 pm. Speakers included representatives from nine organizations and groups: the ACLU, Equality South Dakota, The Centers for Equality, The Black Hills Center for Equality, PFLAG, EQSD PAC, The 10% Society and The Dakota T-Girls.

At last years summit a four year plan was developed to update South Dakota’s 40 year old non-discrimination law, which had not been changed since 1972. One of the results from last years summit was the introduction of HB 1144, a bill that would have amended the states non-discrimination law to include: gender identity, sexual orientation, veteran status, military status and age to the existing law. Other goals that were accomplished were: the hiring of a full time professional lobbyist and conducting a study of how the majority of South Dakotan’s feel about equal rights for LGBT people in the work place. The study was conducted by a well respected company and the results showed the there is a strong majority of the population which supports work place equality.

Sadly the day before the summit, HB 1144 was killed in committee. During the testimony on the bill, the opponents used all of the same old tactics, lies and distortions in their arguments against equality that we’ve come to expect. They of course placed almost all of their emphasis on gender identity and the bathroom issue. They quoted out of context from the Transgender Law Center’s booklet “Peeing in Peace” as part of their arguments against the bill. During their testimony, the level of ignorance about gender identity issues was glaringly obvious by the number of times that they kept confusing the terminology, repeatedly referring to gender identity as “sexual gender” as well as confusing and misusing other terms. You can listen to the testimony from the hearting on HB 1144 here: Hhe21 or download it by right clicking on the link and choosing ‘Save as’. The hearing starts at 1:14:19 and the opposition’s testimony starts at 1:39:50 on the
time line.

The main focus of this year’s summit was to refine the four year equality plan, to develop new strategies, to determine areas to focus on for the next year based on the lessons learned from the past year and to set goals for the next year. Goals set for this year are: much need fund raising, channeling those funds to support pro equality legislators and new candidates, to campaign against those legislators who votes against HB 1144 in the fall elections and to educate incumbent legislators on LGBT issues.

The idea of dropping gender identity and adopting an incremental approach (like the 2007 ENDA) were briefly discussed and quickly put aside after a clear explanation that without including the “T”, gender identity, a sexual orientation only bill would only protect straight passing LGB’s and would provide little if any to protection for effeminate gay men, butch lesbians or straight people who are perceived as not fitting into perceived gender norms.

The final 2 hours of the summit were for a dinner and reception for 40 to 45 members of the state’s legislators and included 2 candidates for governor in the up coming fall elections.

Who knows Why?

By Tina

I am one of those “changelings”, MtF post-op transsexual, to be exact.

I had spent most of my life both denying and avoiding  —  no, no, no, that’s not REALLY me, THAT’S NOT ME!  —  NO!

As the defenses slowly fell.  As I found myself ready to repeat my dysfunctional relationship dance once again  —  it struck me  —  I was the only constant.  I was the one part of all the relationships that was the same.  It wasn’t the fault of any of my wives or girlfriends  —  it was me.

At that point I decided to end the dance, to sit out a tune or two (or three).

Soon afterward, all those repressed feelings began to surface  —  again.  Time after time, I’d attempted to hide  —  from myself, from others, from the world.

This idea I was born, somehow, wrong.  Born a mistake.  As a child I was sure I would grow up to be just like my girl cousins  —  they told me, again and again, I would not.  All the adults told me I was a boy.

Etc., etc., etc., etc.

When I finally began to accept myself  —  I looked for a reason.  There had to be a reason.  It just wasn’t logical, it didn’t make sense.

I looked for physical clues  —  how my body was formed, how I grew.  Clues from my youth  —  there just HAD to be a reason.  I’d never liked boys.  Though told I was sterile by Doctor after Doctor, I ended up having two kids.

I thought that odd.

Anyway, is spite of all that  —  I came out, transitioned, had SRS, and am over the need for a “rational” reason.

I think an awful lot of late transitioners end up looking for a REASON.  They want to know WHY?  WHY?  They were adult males who gave in to this need, this overwhelming drive  —  it often becomes “change or die”.

I think it takes time to reach a point where “why” no longer matters.  A point where it just IS.  A point where I’m actually happy to just be happy, to just be me.

If there is a reason  —  I leave that to others.  Let them agonize, do analysis, do their various tests.  I’m just happy that I’m at peace.  I’m happy my mind and body are in “synch”.

That’s enough.

If The Shoe Fits

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Alternative Medicine or Quackery?

Over the last year this blog has cast a seriously skeptical eye on the proliferation of highly dubious claims by people with transsexualism or transgenderism to being physically intersex rather than TS or TG.

The examination of these claims to improbable intersex conditions was prompted by things we were reading on a mailing list that was founded with the purpose of removing GID from the DSM.  We were going WTF? WTF? Particularly, considering  the majority of these claims were not coming from kids who might have exhibited a physical appearance that would have caused someone  looking  at them, even as they were dressed as boy. and say, “My that kid looks more like a girl than a boy”.  Kids whose bodily build would indicate a failure to masculinize.

Instead, the bulk of these claims were coming from transsexual or transgender people who had fathered children.  In some cases these  people were also claiming they were physically disabled and therefore could not actually transition.  Nonetheless they were real women and those of us who did not join them in these claims of intersex no matter how improbable, were not.

We are seriously concerned that this proliferation of dubious claims of intersex conditions by all these people who were and are transsexual could be used to hinder the effort many of us are exerting to remove GID from the DSM.  After all we are in the unfortunate position of having to prove our sanity, something that is difficult enough for a stigmatized class of people to accomplish.  One of the major charges against us is that we are delusional, detached from reality, perhaps even psychotic.  Another charge is that we are compulsive liars, incapable of telling the truth or perhaps in even recognizing it due to our detachment from reality.

Several of us have been on line friends for years now.  We have seen the vicious results of the frauds with many names who burned not only us but respected researchers.  I speak of Kiirea Tirea and Cheryl Chase as well as their many sock puppets who taught us to question the often carefully researched claims of obscure and exceedingly rare conditions.  Particularly since these very same individuals were also engaged in supporting Bailey, Blanchard, Lawrence, Zucker

Often times the same people making these bizarre claims to improbable if not impossibly contradictory forms of intersex are the very people most actively engaged in attacking transsexual and transgender people as perverts and “men in dresses”.  It doesn’t take a degree in psychiatry to see the internalized transphobia on the part of these individuals.

Some of these same individuals regularly push HBS as a replacement for transsexualism and claim membership in an elite group of “classic transsexuals”.

Oddly enough even though our exposing of the dubious nature of these bizarre claims of improbable intersex conditions was not originally aimed at specific individuals beyond Tirea and Chase as well as the people on GID Reform, various people acted like the cinematic vampires who are suddenly exposed to sun light.

Zoe, a resident of New Zealand, who seems to spend some 18 hours a day on line posting her claims everywhere and anywhere has been one of these vampires, accidentally caught in the sunlight when people on this blog mainly myself and Andrea Brown pierced the cloak of self serving deceit.  We were not initially focused upon her but her claims of spontaneous mid-life change of sex challenge anyone with any real knowledge of the conditions she cites.  Yes it is true fish do change sex in at least certain species.  And yes there is a small group of people with a hormone processing defect that delays physical masculinization until the onset of puberty.

But this does not make what Zoe states terribly credible.  Zoe is transsexual and has a great deal of internalized transphobia this causes her to have to justify being transsexual with an elaborate web of contradictory claims to being intersex.

Her basic impulse is to not own up to her dishonesty but to try piling on more BS.  This cause her to become more and more like Tirea and Chase.  She uses someone,  as an assistant, M. Italiano, MB BS (AM) Board Certified in Alternative Medicine (India) in an attempt to discredit Andrea.

Neither Andrea or myself are angry about having been operated upon as infants.  Because we are just plain old fashioned women who were born with transsexualism.  The person claiming we are angry because of having been mistreated as infants is confusing us with Tirea or with Chase.

But back to Italiano, Certified in Alternative Medicine means exactly nothing.

I am a stone Atheist. No god, no spiritual crap either.  No crystal healing, no aroma therapy.  I am as skeptical regarding all the new age “ancient wisdom of the east” as I am the pope and all other forms of religion.

Even Italiano’s description of premarin as a synthetic hormone belies a level of ignorance that is staggering.  Many of the objections to premarin are not due to its being synthetic (it isn’t as it is extracted from the urine of pregnant mares) but rather due to the level of animal abuse required to obtain it when ethinyl estradiol can be synthesized in a laboratory.

There are numerous sites and books that raise serious doubts regarding almost every form of “alternative medicine”.  Scientific research has failed to validate the claims of nearly every form of “alternative medicine” and label it of questionable if of any value. is one such site Google will give numerous other sites debunking “alternative medicine”.

The fact remains that the people who currently seem to be the most upset were not the original targets.  But since they seem to think the shoe fits.  So be it.

Friday Night Fun and Culture

Nico with the Velvet Underground from the Banana Album 1967  “I’ll Be Your Mirror”

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Trannie Bashing: Ann Coulter

Make no mistake about what I am going to say.

I hate Ann Coulter and everything she stands for.  The only positive thing I can say I have learned from anything she has ever written is how to edit potentially sketchy material to somewhat libel proof it within the US.

I have long read her as being either transsexual or transgender, most probably the former.  I have wondered why with her money she hasn’t had certain work done.

That said many of the things Ann Coulter says in attacking certain people remind me of all too many of the “classic transsexuals” and their reification of ultra conservative standards regarding matters of sexuality as well as masculinity and femininity.  Live by the sword, die by the sword.  The poison one puts out has a way coming back.

Therefore I should perhaps consider it poetic justice when Keith Olbermann lays into Ann Coulter and trannie bashs her.

See Raw Story:

Olbermann says he backs Ann Coulter living ‘his’ life as a woman

By David Edwards
Friday, February 19th, 2010 — 9:00 am

In a column about Iran’s potential nuclear capability, Ann Coulter also criticized Keith Olbermann, Richard Wolffe and Rachel Maddow.

In response, in a segment about those he disagrees with — which he turned on its head Thursday night — Keith Olbermann dubbed legendary conservative maven Ann Coulter a “guy.”

“Our winner” of the not worst person in the world segment, Olbermann declared, was “Coultergeist.”

“Of me, [Coulter] writes, ‘after donning his mother’s housecoat, undergarments and fuzzy slippers,’ then, ‘Olbermann’s even creepier sidekick androgynous Newsweek reporter Richard Wolffe,’ then, ‘his most macho guest Rachel Maddow.””

Olbermann noted what he called “Coulter’s continuing self-relevatory obsession with sexual identity,” and said her writing “really suggests a helluva back story in her own life.”

“All I have to say about Ann Coulter is this,” the MSNBC host quipped. “If this guy wants to live his life as a woman I’m going to back his choice up 100 percent. Coultergeist, today’s not worst person in the world.”

This is ugly and vile on the part of Keith Olbermann, a commentator I generally respect.  I am glad I opted to watch the Winter Olympics instead.  A couple of years ago Keith’s enthusiasm regarding Obama and near misogyny regarding Clinton caused me to tune him out for months.

All I can think of regarding this attack on Ann Coulter is that trannie bashing is one of the last forms of bigotry permitted among otherwise progressive left wing people whether it is from feminists or from male lefties or even from gays and lesbians.  It is still acceptable to use someone’s being either transsexual or transgender as a club to beat them up with.

Would Keith have used race if Ann Coulter were a person of color?  Would he have lesbian bashed her if she were a closet lesbian?

Outing when done by Mike Rogers, who regularly outs closeted gays who are engaged in actions harmful to the LGBT/T communities shows how the facts can be stated without using them in a manner that closely resembles the actions of those who brutally attack and injure LGBT/T people.

Keith engaged in an ugly form of bigotry and hatred.

Today’s Worst Person in the World:  Keith Olbermann

US – GLBT Historical Society Re-Launches Passionate Struggle Archives…

This is the institution that Susan Stryker collected my oral history for.

SFO Bay Times 2/18/2010

Historical Society Re-Launches Passionate Struggle Archives

By Dennis McMillan

February 18, 2010
Exhibit consultant Elisabeth Cornus with curators Don Romesburg and Amy Sueyoshi.

Since 1985, the GLBT Historical Society has collected, documented, preserved, and shared the queer community’s rich and varied history. The Society keeps history alive through its archives, exhibits, and programming. The “Passionate Struggle” archives, being part of the GLBT Historical Society, have moved from the temporary Castro location to that of the Society in the 657 Mission Street building. These have been reinstalled and re-launched in the main gallery downtown. Now 20% of the pieces have been rotated out. “The structure is basically the same,” said Paul Boneberg, executive director of the GLBT Historical Society, “but it has been updated and added to.”

It divides the queer history of San Francisco into four parts all starting with the letter “p”: people, places, politics, and pleasure. “It’s a way of surveying queer history, and of particular interest to visitors to the City,” he said. Boneberg announced a major exhibit will open in the summer for their silver anniversary in the Castro. “I am more hopeful than I’ve ever been that we will be back in the Castro again,” Boneberg told Bay Times.

They are in final negotiations with Walgreens. After a delay of several months, the GLBT Historical Society recently received a renewed offer from the Walgreens Corporation to lease a storefront for a new Castro exhibit. This storefront is on 18th Street, right off Castro Street. It is twice as large as the previous Castro Street exhibit, and would allow them to increase their programming significantly. The proposed lease would be for five years, with rent substantially lower than market rate. The Society calls it “a very generous offer.”

Walgreens and the Historical Society are endeavoring to move quickly to obtain permits and begin construction. Boneberg said the exhibit in the Castro will look at the 25 year history of LGBT people in the Bay Area and look to the future as well.

Meanwhile, the Society has refreshed “Passionate Struggle” while a committee is working on a totally new exhibit. “We didn’t know when we took down ‘Passionate Struggle’ from its space at Castro and 18th how it would fit in our downtown gallery; but as it turns out, it fits as if it was planned to be here,” said co-curator Don Romesburg. “It’s nice to be able to show off what is our crown jewel of our city history.” He noted there have been several changes. For instance, they have brought in more items related to queer people of color. Photographs are new, including the Committee for Homosexual Freedom from 1969, picketing a steamship company after it fired an employee for appearing in a gay newspaper. There is an issue of Diseased Pariah News – one of their most controversial, in-your-face issues – as a play on “This is your brain on drugs.” Fancy is a transgender woman who gave them her collection, including one in a series of pamphlets, “Religious Aspects of Transsexualism by the Erickson Educational Foundation” from 1971 about how to inform one’s family and people in the faith community of the support a trans person needs. There is a fairly explicit pamphlet with quite erotic images on safer sex targeting African American men from the San Francisco AIDS Foundation, a relatively conservative organization at that time. Another new item is “The Bimonthly,” the newsletter of the Bisexual Center, founded in 1976, when a lot of people in the bi community were struggling to find their own voice. Visitors who frequented the Castro museum are challenged to find the rest of the new items in the exhibit.

“I am really grateful for all the volunteers who not only kept ‘Passionate Struggle’ alive in the Castro but also enabled us to come into the Mission,” said co-curator Amy Sueyoshi. “We are mostly volunteer run and couldn’t do this without the volunteers’ support.”

Elizabeth Cornu, head object conservator at the Fine Arts Museum of San Francisco and exhibit consultant, made sure items were properly cared for in the transfer and display process (from the Mission to the Castro and back to the Mission), that nothing would be damaged. “I have been involved off and on with the GLBT Historical Society over the years, and I seem to have intensified my assistance,” she said. “It’s just sort of a natural progression.”

She added, “They ask me questions, and I come and help. It’s fun, and I love it.”

A specialized exhibit, “Keepin’ On:” Images of African American Lesbians,” has also been installed on two of the walls of the Mission location. It is sponsored by the Lesbian Herstory Archives, created in 1991 to celebrate and honor the diversity, creativity, and strength of the African American lesbian community. The title comes from the phrase Mabel Shampton used when working at the Archives: “keep on keepin’ on.” She was one of the first volunteers at the Archives and was out in the African American community her entire life. She died in 1989 at the age of 87. The Lesbian Herstory Archives was founded in 1974.


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Sometimes I Feel Like I am Watching “Paris is Burning”

When I was young I used to go to Drag Bars, the nasty sleazy kind, as if there are any other, because in the world of gay and lesbian bars those that let queens and trannies in are generally at the bottom of the lumpen prole level of social standing.

I was friends with a bunch of queens, trannie hookers, who would now be elevated to the status of transgender sex workers, an exercise in title inflation with no improvement in pay or benefits that is so characteristic of the post Reagan/Thatcher world of neo-liberalism and neo-conservatism (fascism).

Nothing ever changes.  John Rechy wrote of the scenes in these sorts of bars in late 1950s Los Angeles and I witnessed it in the mid 1970s.  Paris is Burning was shot in the 1980s and one can view the slightly up-scale version in the on-line world of trannies on a daily basis.

Youth and realness are prized.  The ability to walk down the street as yourself without getting beaten or verbally harassed is a source of both admiration and pride.

I was part of an elite clique when we were going through the Stanford Program, I lived in Berkeley, not in the Tenderloin, worked the phone and not the street.

In my early 20s I was teenage hippie girl pretty, and real to the point that when a couple of my BFFs first met me they thought I was a Berkeley psych student researching a paper.

I didn’t spend any time in the bars prior to SRS.  I was in a common law marriage with Jerry and worked at the Center.

My clique was composed of sisters who were also young and pretty, self described “divas”. We attended the group sessions at Stanford, which were clearly misnamed as a “grooming clinic” and which were much more like rap groups where relationships and employment problems as well as questions regrading “the operation” were discussed.  Because our Center was on Turk Street, in a low rent space on a nasty block Jan and I referred those of us who were the young and the pretty as “The Tenderloin Terrors” a play on the names of Roller Derby teams of the day.  Those from San Jose who were older and more established were “The San Jose Bombers”, a reference to the aero-space industry that pre-dated the electronics/computer industry.

About 10 years back I wrote a piece called “Mean Teen Queens and the Mothras”.

This should be an indication that the HBS or Hairy Bull Shit and “Classic Transsexual” is just a post-modern rebranding of a game as old as queens and trannies.  John Rechy wrote about it in City of Night, specifically the chapter “Miss Destiny’s Fabulous Wedding”.  For all I know it went on in the blind pig, private drag bars of 1880-90 New York City.

There is one thing, one element of that I saw during the period of 1973-74 when I was hanging out with the trannie sex workers of Hollywood Blvd, photographing them and documenting their lives as well as my own for my approach was as a participant observer.

That is the competition over realness.  The whole, “I’m real and you are not.” thingie.

In Paris is Burning one of the older queens, I believe from the House of LaBeija explains the difference between reading and throwing shade.  Reading is one sister calling another sister a trannie.  Well when both are trannies what sense does that one make?

So people throw shade and put others down as not being as real or as much woman.  Which is pretty weird since we all started out as transsexual or transgender and had an operation or didn’t.

Now over the years I’ve seen those who get carried away like Amanda Lapore.  I’ve seen the silicon disasters and the huge implants.

I’ve also seen the pictures of some of the folks doing some of the nastiest name calling.  Not even trannie chasers would be attracted to them.

There is a lot of isolation, substance abuse and anger.  It goes with the territory of growing up trans and abused.  The on-line world has given some people a way to vent their resentment and like what one sees among other groups of lumpen folks rather than fighting their oppression many would rather engage in hostility towards each other.

As someone who has been part of various movements over the years  I view this as both a waste of time and as having negative impact on all who are involved.  Particularly since those who tend to do the most stone throwing and name calling tend to set themselves off as not only better than every one else (those lying about being intersex) or claiming deep stealth in spite of being all over the internet.

Transgender and transsexual are vastly different in some very real ways and for many people with transsexualism certain problems that tend to be life long for people with transgenderism are transitory and end with the legal recognition one gains with SRS.  Other problems remain the same.  Isolation from family and structures cis-sexual/gender people take for granted.  Discrimination, relationship difficulties and myriad of issues including substance abuse.

Sometimes the discovery that as a woman, particularly as a middle aged woman one disappears and is so ordinary as to be ignored is a bitter pill to swallow after all the attention and being treated as special during transition.  I suspect a good deal of lashing out is a cry for attention, a way of saying “Look at me!  I am special.  Not like all the other trannies.”

You see way back when I was part of the group considered the divas, we didn’t find it necessary to put people down because we sort of basked in their admiration and acted with a certain noblesse oblige, after all it was our responsibility to those who admired us.

We knew who the Mothras were and just recently my last surviving girlfriend from that era reminded my of how bad some looked.  But she also mentioned how much courage they had and how some were so nice that you couldn’t help but feel their pain.

Sometime when I read some of the vicious stuff slamming other people because they are less real than the person doing the slamming I am stunned by the lack of empathy that gets shown on line.

Perhaps it is the nature of the media and the generalize anonymity as well as ability to hurl insults from the safety of one’s own home causes people to say stuff that they wouldn’t on the streets.  But having hung out in drag bar while photographing that scene in Hollywood I sort of doubt it.

The funny thing is I listen to Sirius Radio’s “Out-Q” Show “Derek and Romaine Show” during my evening drive time.  Yesterday Tina and I were going to dinner and listening, we find their show hysterically funny, and they had a queen named Hedda Lettuce on.  Hedda proceeded to dish and trash all the other queens who perform in the same venues that she does.

Some timmes the phrase, “Your roots are showing.” isn’t about needing a touch up with the dye bottle.